I had been talking to a my friend, the same one I mentioned earlier, about how my mom was feeling. She told me that she was participating in a Lupus Loop with some people from her work that upcoming weekend. So...I did some research and learned that it was a 5K and all the proceeds would be donated to Lupus research. I knew my mom and I had to go! I was looking forward to doing something positive for Lupus, because up until this point I felt a lot of anger towards the situation. I think because I was helpless, there was nothing I could do to change my mom's diagnosis. I can't fix her, and that makes me mad.
We registered for the walk online. I was beyond thrilled! I felt like maybe I was making a difference. I believe a few people even donated to us! We were pumped for walk day! When the day finally arrived I was pretty nervous. I don't think I knew what to expect. When we arrived I was very overwhelmed by the amount of people that had attended. I was sort of taken back when I saw what some of the other lupus warriors were going through. Many were in wheelchairs, or using a cane. Some were completely covered because they needed to block the sun. My mom looked at me and began to cry. My heart broke of her. I remember her saying, "Is this my future?" I knew I couldn't answer that because the truth was and still is, we don't know what the future holds. But I did know from that moment on, whatever came her way, we would face it together.
I had an awesome time on the walk. It did me good to get out and get moving. My weight is something I have always struggled with, and this was a very motivating day for me! We completed 3.21 miles and loved every minute of it! I had such a feeling of accomplishment when I finished!
I knew that I wanted to go to another one! I had finally found a way to fight Lupus and I didn't feel angry. I might even say, part of me felt happy. I didn't need to be mad at the world because my mom was sick. I needed to stand up and fight for her life, and lives of so many others. To date I have been a part of more than 8 Lupus walks up and down the east coast. I have traveled to Boca Raton, Florida, Atalanta, Georgia, New York City, and Harrisburg, Pennsylvania in my fight against Lupus. Numerous friends and family have joined us along the way! I'm so glad that we went to this Lupus Loop in Scranton! It truly changed my life! It's the day I began getting my life back. The day I realized anything worth having, is worth fighting for....I face the fight for not only my mom's life but the lives of all Lupus warriors every day...
I am the daughter of a Lupus patient! This is our journey through my eyes!